You Can Call Me Liar

My daddy keeps blaming,
The laptop and cellphone,
As the reason that they,
Make up my story

But I told him why,
It ain't their fault

My daddy still refuses,
To accept anything else,
For they suit perfectly fine,
To match up my story

But I told him why,
It ain't their fault

If I told you why,
The way I cried,
You wouldn't stand,
For it I know

You can call me liar,
For you don't know the truth,
You can call me loser,
For you know I gave up

If I told you,
There was a girl,
Behind the scene,
Would you let me,
Walk off the hook,
Without a trail

You can call me liar,
Cause I hid the truth,
You can call me careless,
Cause I don't seem like I do

But if you knew the truth,
Would it ease the pain,
That you carry by your soul

My girl keeps fighting with me,
Whenever I say something,
For the words I speak,
Get interpreted upright

But I asked her why,
You hear it all so wrong

You can call me liar,
But I didn't pity you,
You can call me liar,
But I didn't bitch about you

If you knew the truth,
Would it change the fact,
That you left me for no good

You can call me liar,
For I've moved on,
You can call mea cheater,
But ain't that you

I can't fight with you,
Or girl logic anymore,
I have been crying alone,
For way far too long

I tried to get back,
Way back in time,
But did you try,
To listen even once

You can call me liar,
But I loved you like no other,
You can call me liar,
For it all lies, in the past

P.S : Struck in the head by Dawn Jay, some day today, and everything keeps hitting me hard all over again, after quite a long time.

Thinking Back

Thinking back to yesterday,
I see you in memories,
Thinking back to how we were,
I see me begging you

To think that it would be,
The way it turned out,
To think that I would cry,
For days to come

Whatever hurts you makes you stronger,
And just a little bit bolder,
Whatever hurts you make you wiser,
And just a little bit wilder

Thinking back to yesterday,
Still makes me ponder,
Thinking back to yesterday,
Still makes me shiver

SICS Foundation Day

        SICS or rather Srishti Innovative, is the name of the company where I work in. Its been ten months now since I've been working there. A lot has changed, especially my life and lifestyle. When I look back now, never did I even imagine of getting a job anywhere, but then again I or rather us- the group- were the first ones to get a job from our batch. That by itself was something out of the blue. People may look at it as a small company, but then again when you look at the fact, no company was founded big. They all started with just a handful of people and then over the years managed to reach where they are now, will thousands of employees and lots of offices spread out wide. Leave that aside and coming to the main point of this blog, September 4th is the foundation day of our company SICS. And this year, the company completed five years of existence.


           Foundation Day or Annual Day as we used to call it during school days, is pretty much the same  here as well. That only day of the year where every employee enjoys to the fullest, coupled with some cultural activities and entertainment. And this year to make sure that everyone participated, the group was split into three teams. Teams were to have a solo song, a group song , a solo dance , a group dance and a skit, with more participation welcome. Thus the practice began about two weeks ahead of the foundation day, well all this practice had to be done after work hours or on weekends. Thus the different teams started practicing the various items or at least the other two teams.

              I so badly wanted to participate for something for the first time and thought I'll take up a slot in the skit. Well our team was blessed with the best storywriter you know. He prepared two skits , the first had only two characters, and the other one required a lot of characters. I was the perfect fit for the first one by appearance thou not by linguistic skills or acting skills. I did practice a bit on it for a single day on it , but never again got time for it thereafter , cause I was on leave for the next week, as it was Onam and the only vacation that my parents get. And thus I left, hoping that I'd be replaced properly by someone who fits in well.

                   I got back home on Sunday morning, the 2nd of September. And I came to know that they were all practicing and recording for the skit and dance that day. On Monday, I was asked to stay back to practice saying that I had two small roles in the play. Well, for your information I always had stage fear cause I've never been on stage and never wanted demanding roles. But I did get two roles that actually suited me best, where I din't even have to speak a word. It was the best skit ever, talk about creativity , all credits to him for the awesome story -a  spoof one- and direction.


      I've uploaded the video on Youtube, cause its a must watch, and if you understand Malayalam and if you are a developer do see it, you'll really love it for sure. And for the rest , there are some action sequences along the way, do check it out, cause theres one scene which is still unbelievable to all of us as it came out picture perfect, for an on stage performance, it really is something to rewind an action and redo it perfectly.


Here I present before you, our skit : Small B - The iPhone Version

All credits to Sinson for the story and direction. And all credits to the cast and crew who did their best to make this a success.

It was our Foundation Day, another one will come only after a year. Hoping the growth of the company continues, and there be plenty more amazing moments to enjoy on this path.

Facebook : Virtuality or Reality ?

              Facebook as you know it, has actually blended itself into our daily lives before we even realised it. Its more than just an addiction, its no longer how much time you spend on it anymore, its what all you share and do there now that  matters. Now let me take a look back at the path I've followed over to here.

                Guess it was in 2007 that I first signed up in Facebook, don't exactly remember why, but it was definitely cause one of my friends told me about it, and I was in some sort of frenzy signing up in all sorts of Social networking sites starting with Orkut , then through Myspace,Tagged , and Mingle Box to name a few. Back in those days, not really any of my friends used Facebook much, but there were quite some apps , games to be precise which actually made me addicted to Facebook back then. I used to log in just to play those games,as most of them were turn based and time based. In some months time, I had to desert Facebook for good, once and for all, once I reached the top on all those games that I used to play. I used to login at times just to check on it, and it wasn't until 2009 that I started clawing my way back over there, for the sake of some people held so dear to me.

               Out of the blue, Orkut started collapsing, still don't know what triggered this sudden collapse, people started migrating in packs from Orkut to Facebook. Maybe it was the security issues and lack of privacy, the possibility of getting hacked , which all led to this inevitable crisis. Thus slowly got everyone over here on Facebook.

        Coming to the question, is Facebook or any other of the social websites a Virtual world? Have heard lots of people saying its a fake world out there. They keep saying its all virtual and nothing is real and to keep away from Facebook. Let me guess, something bad happened to you din't it? Most probably got cheated by someone you met online. The most common could be relationships and money related incidents. Shit happens!! Its true, you can't avoid tough luck all the time. Just cause something bad happened doesn't mean its a virtual world.

        "The real world is full of fake people and Facebook is full of fake personalities."

  You have to be on the safer side. Just don't go about trusting anyone blindly if you aren't prepared to face the worst, in fact its a tough decision to make when you choose to trust someone with something, especially cause you can never tell people apart, for all of them are sitting behind another computer screen somewhere else in the world. You can't even be sure if a profile of a girl is actually a girl or a boy pretending to be a girl.

      Incidents take place even in the real world where you get duped by impostors pretending to be someone else. It happens a lot more on this so called "Virtual World" cause everyone gets to play the role of the villain without bringing themselves to light, and people misuse the opportunity. Trust is like glass, once broken you can never fix it again. Why break someone's faith in you for your entertainment?

           You are only one to blame for what happens to you. Staying away is not the solution to this. Its merely running away from the face of truth. Be strong enough to make decisions. And most importantly know when you should say "No", and when to say it. It's your weakness that leads to your downfall.

          I ain't running away fearing the worst. Come what may, for I've got friends who'll back me up even in the worst. Facebook actually helped me keep in touch with all my buds. And it even helped me bring out my old self which I had lost during a rough transition period. Sharing is caring they say, isn't that true? Doesn't mean you should upload pics of your relatives death on that dreaded event's eve, that's going way too far.

       So is it virtuality or reality? Its what you make of it. Be real, be yourself, you'll find real people even if its 1 in 10, cause most of us want to be like someone else and just doesn't like being ourselves, which leads to the rise of these fake personalities.

Insecure

Even thou I lost my will,
Even thou I lost my soul,
Why do I always feel,
So insecure , so darn helpless

Even thou I lost myself,
Even thou I miss myself,
Why do I always feel,
So inferior , so darn hopeless

What do I even do now,
Where do I move on now,
I lay here stuck and desperate,
Trying to find my way out

People say Move On,
Like its no big deal at all,
But when put in the same bottle,
Why can't they just Move On ?

You are no different than me,
In fact you crumble sooner,
The rubble is messier,
Than when it was me

I feel insecure about your future,
You'll drift farther apart,
I feel insecure about our future,
Cause you're drifting away