Saturday, April 23, 2011

The Virtual World....

The virtual world ........
its now our daily life routine ... to spend some time online this so called virtual world where things seem to be real but aint ...Sadly there are way too many people in there who believe in it completely ,thats the problem , believing is not a problem but when you trust in it blindly u are kind of bound to suffer.
Even i have suffered cause i believed in it , rarely do u find someone whose trust worthy ..... Coming to the point ...

People especially kids in the teens join in social networking sites especially orkut and facebook for fun ... they then get caught up in it , n usually get addicted to it . The ones who come here to spend time just for fun aint usually affected , different people have different motives :) you never know . But seriously things are much more dangerous than you could imagine.There have been reported cases of all sorts of crimes taking place with the hep of orkut , it was even published in newspapers , if u have seen them you would know.

People are just not yet aware of it , people make accounts with fake identities and lure in their unlucky prey , there seem to have been cases of murder, kidnapping etc ... as the criminals were pretending to be girls and lured their target " boyfriends" into their trap. And they blindly fell for it. Understand 1 thing people dont care , n the ones that really care will always be left in tatters cause when u get ditched what would you feel?? :)

I dont regret being an idiot n believing in those who i did n broke my trust , cause i do have friends who will be with me na :) , i cant take that path anymore , its truly awesome being single , you dont need to worry about anything , n 1 thing if you have never been in love , you would never know what it feels like to be in love , n what it is like , to have a broken heart :)
But i dint miss any of it :) i am through with it :) n i still love everyone i loved , all my dear friends , even those who turned their backs on me without even trying to understand me , without even wanting to listen to what i had to say , i feel hurt for sure . But that my friend is life :) You cant get everything nice , u just have to bear some thorns even to get a rose . :)

Love is something divine , u cant get it if you dont deserve it , or maybe if gods planning something much better for you :) . You cant find your love on the net na , u really have no idea whats on the other side . As i have seen its usually girls who act recklessly and are left in pain .....they are so lost in love that they do anything for them , n are so darn blind , as they say love is blind , that they fail to realise and understand the truth . I aint saying that all are bad , but u should be pretty much aware to keep yourself within your own reach so that u dont loose yourself when the unexpected break up occurs. They do tend to say all kinds of reasons to justify that they are right . Whatever happened to me was meant to happen n i dont complain about it. It was never her fault :) as i came to know she just followed her heart :) , which i support :) . But do u remember that i told you so many times , that this wont last , n we may not even be ever able to meet in our lives , n then you got angry and upset at me n told to believe in love :) u made me believe , u showed me that u were mine , u gave me dreams that i never wanted to have , n then you just snatched it away , saying its not for you :)
Similar is the situation thats happening with most of the girls i know , you know what? Its a curse to be too beautiful :) Every boy will be after you , saying this and that , showing so much care and love that you actually trust them and fall for them. And in a matter of time you get dumped , and u wont even know whats the reason , you are done ... hes had enough of you . Now hes bored of you , and doesnt need you anymore ... get it? I wish i could help you out but you dont wanta , you still believe that you can make him understand your love for him ... u try everything , but u just dont get it , that he doesnt care anymore , u were just merely a time pass for him , in other cases girls become the source of their resources , they just use you for their needs and you dont even realise it... but when u do , it would have been too late. You must have lost way too much by then to get back up n your feet and move on. I know its hard or you to move on , its not easy to move on after breaking up. And the worst thing you cant comprehend is the reason , everytime they pop with a new reason ....
But then i have really seen some awesome love stories online aswell , but distance is a factor , the closer you are the better for your relation :) its true :)

Even friends :) i have got my best friends through net only :) , they are just awesome <3 n i love them :)
But you expect your closest friends to understand you , do u not? :) What would you do if a small misunderstanding took you to apart ?? I really really wish u would understand :) , but i know u wont :) i miss you truly :) but u went ahead :) u'll always be 1 of my besties <3 my dear meow :) I wanted you to be my besty again n then you ran away :( , i was so darn hurt :( , i cant follow you around barking like a lost puppy u know , but i will be around in your shadows if you ever need me :) That 1 moment i caNT FORGET , that contest , i just dint want bad things to happen :( but the worst happened :( , i dint wanna hurt a little kids feelings :( , but in the end she turned out not to be a kid :( , n she though just used me :( as 1 of her puppets along with some others :( but you were gone :( , i was always jealous of you being so busy a the time :( , but u dint understand :( , anyways sorry from my part for being such a stubborn kid :( , hope you are doing well :) >:D<

Theres a lot more of things happening around na .... lot of people have had their feelings hurt so bad , they just dont know how , or what now .... i hope you wont fall among as 1 of them ....
One warning .... the people who always say i dont want to be love or be committed are most likely the ones who are bound to suffer the most :( .... and girls , if you are in any kinda of problematic situation please please dont resort to this :( , it will shine like a morning star that gives you some hope, some happiness , but mark my words it wont last long :( , the light will turn into darkness, n you will be left
stranded in pitch black darkness ..... You will have only pain .. pain that will take you a really long time
to get over ....
Please stay safe all of you :)
Remember , you are all gems to your parents :)
If you ever feel that none loves you , think of them :) cause they sure as hell love you more than anyone else ever will :)

Friday, April 15, 2011

Horror of an exam season

Engineering as it is , is nothing but a burden for children these days ,i say what i say as i see through my eyes.

As it is , engg has become so become so darn common that people who pass through even with sixty percent marks find it hard to find any kind of job for themselves. What has come of this world , why do parents wish to send their children to pursue engineering when they aint even interested in it. How sad for those little lives that are forced into it. Why cant parents let them choose their paths according to their interests. Some parents do understand their child better and choose the best for them . Some do succeed in it aswell.
Leave it any way as that what has happened cant be changed now.

Now exams exams and more exams. How unfateful now . I wish i werent in this situation now but what ever happened was my own fault only i dont deny it either. Now i can only regret not studying when i shouldnt have been so careless . What use saying like that now. I wish the new gen of kidos really understand the importance of studying well throughout or else you will have to suffer alot na.

Now look at my situation exams and more exams. I have no time for anything except for exams. Now in my situation i have just one month free as vacations and all throughout the rest of the year i have to write exams.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

For a lost friend .....

Typing like this makes it tough .....
memories never fade .....
a friend is a friend always... :]
and a best friend will always remain no matter what happens b/w them :)
you always drop me down to nothing more than tears ....
do u remember me ???
do u remember who u used to be for me??
now posting a song here
cause when i hear it , nothing comes to my mind except you :)
i cant change anything ,
i deserve nothing more ,
i may not be worthy of being your friend , am sorry :)

"Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life"

where did i go wrong??? :(
wish i had an answer to tell myself , to console myself , that i did this, i did that , n for which this is the punishment ......
i know i have been harsh n cruel to you :(
but aint u being a bit too cruel to me? :(
what was i supposed to do then? :(
i was stuck in that then :( , i dint wanna hurt anyone :(
but ended up hurting you the most :(
maybe no sorry can heal the wounds :(
i just dint know :( then :(
am sure i will cry the rest of my life over this and nothings gonna change :(
i am not the best , or not even close to good ,
i dont know anything :( , my life has been so only ,
none believes thou , n if they do at one time they turn out later and say it was all a lie , so i prefer not saying anymore ...
The commitment i was in , was nothing more than just a forced one :( , i think a lot on people n try to do the best :(
yet i always fail :( n do the worst to them :( ....
if u think am so desperate then so be it , if its for you , then it doesnt matter :)
i type knowing that it wont happen , still i have hope :)
i still believe in you :) , m sure you dont thou :)
n i cant blame you for that :) , my fault na ......
please feel free to correct me if u can :)
thats my request :)
people do move on when love breaks down ....
but thats different from friendship aint it not? :)
i just need you ,... thou u wont come back no more.
I hope you have gone ahead well :) , for someone like u , getting a good friend wont be a hard thing :)
You will always be an angel to everyone n they will always treat you well :) m sure none would hurt you like i did . :)
but thanks a lot :>D< , cause u will always be a part of my life :D
n that too a very important 1 :D
I dont make lots of close friends , the ones close will always remain close in my heart no matter where the future takes them :)
It not in my hands to control the train of life , in which lots of friends enter and leave at some point of life :)
Its the way of life :) ..... am sorry i became a reason for you to pull the chain and get out ......
N never again will i get a gem of a friend like you :) that i am sure :)
i miss you meow :>D< ....
hope you stay happy all your life :D
i wish all the best in your life , in your job n your bright happy future :D
if ever you happen to remember me , if you need me anytime :) , dont you hesitate :)
you know me na :) i will always be the same old me :) , with a lil bit of tweaks :D
a lil makeover :)
as they say "old wine in new bottle" :D
^^ <3
Friends are forever :D
just like diamonds :) <3

The path of fate

♥ the choice was urs ,
the fate was myn,
the path was urs,
the suffering awl myn

life takes the twist,
u feel the pain,
life turns around,
u stand alone

the way seems sweet,
the path tears ua feet,
the lyts seem ta glow,
the road stoops so low

the destination gazes,
on ur faces,
with jus 1 question,
is this the end?? ♥

time will turn the tides....

♥ ur ignorance is my strength....

the tides will turn ...

n u will plead...

i wont be there to hear....

i waited ,

i bowed down,

u hated,

u turned down

life went on,

i drifted along,

u were gone,

but still in my heart ♥


♥ my actions are my regrets,
my mistakes despise me,
the lost aura still unfound,
the scars of life still unfazed

the blades brush by,
the blood gushes by,
the wounds seek mercy,
the heart longs for redemption

time lay still,
winds wade the mill,
darkness screeches in,
hell has let u in ♥

Regrets of a nobody.....

♥ i regret being alive,
i regret making mistakes,
everything i do 4 good,
turns out to b so bad

i regret my words,
i regret my talks,
i say what i say for u,
but it aint wat u want

i regret my actions,
i regret my deeds,
i did wat i did 4 u,
but dat aint wt u wanted either

regret is all i got,
pain is all u got,
wish i cud set it right,
but i cant cuz i aint right

every step i take forward,
i pause n look backward,
everything i have dun til now,
makes me wanna regret

i wanna tel u em sorry,
but u aint gt tym ta worry,
i wan u ta show me mercy,
u aint gt tym kuz u bizy

how i wish u knew,
wat dis kitty mew,
how i wish u knew me better,
to show u what i really am

Undeserving me.......

♥ i dun need yaw sympathy,
i dun need ya ta listen ta me,
i aint wanna speak naw ,
nor no more,
i aint wanna be misunderstood,
kuz of d way i say,
i believe in ma fwenx,
n datx awl dat matter ta me,
be der one or none,
m been thru it awl,
u kant put a dent,
on ma tent ,
wen m bent,
kuz it doesn't even matter

wen i walk ,
on d road,
i look down,
on d floor,
wen i sit ,
in d bus,
i look out,
off d bus ,
wen u walk,
on d road,
u luk up ,
at her face,
wen u sit,
in a bus,
u peek out,
for her face

u aint got no wages,
u wont change in ages,
i aint turn no pages,
i look at d gauges,
time flies like its brake-less,
u will die kuz u break-less ♥

Flow out , feelings ....

<3 This aint meanta be a freakin poem,

tis aint meant ta be read over,

this is just an understatement,

this is just d bare faced truth

do u care ??

do u mind??

do u know ?

will u know?

lessons that u taught me,

will reflect in my memories,

lessons that lyf taught me,

will reflect in my actions

this weird feeling that i get,

wen i hear a song that i love,

feels lyk shockwaves go thru my veins,

feels lyk an eternal breeze of love

lisning to my heart will go on ,

i feel tat myn will go on too,

i gota run outa here now,

so this ends now <3