College Days - II

I've been alone,
I've been ignored,
It hurt within each day,
But it made me strong

I'm letting go this time,
All the rhymes for this one,
I'm letting go this time,
All the feelings that lie within

This day I go forth,
Overflowing with emotions,
These last few days,
Unable to accept the change

These days are numbered,
Countable with fingers,
These days are counted,
As the ones that shouldn't pass

What can you or I do,
To stop this time,
From slipping right through,
Leading to emptiness

Never felt this way,
Never been so attached,
Not when school ended,
Not all these years

Why is this happening now,
Why is this feeling creeping in,
What's with the tears,
Filling up the eyes so fast

Never thought this would happen,
Never thought I would change,
When I would cry for this,
When I would miss my college life

I wanna cry out loud,
I wanna hold on to this,
I just can't let go,
I just can't take this anymore

I still see myself hating this college,
I see myself waiting for the end,
Everyday I was complaining,
All those days three years long

Why should I cry,
Why should I cry,
I never cared a damn,
Then why should I now

I find no words that sound right,
The strings so tightly attached,
The sound that resonates,
Ain't anything but heart felt music

No more boring lectures,
No more silly fights,
No more funny jokes,
No more college days

College Days - I

We were young,
When we came,
We were filled,
With so much hope

What was expected,
Was what we saw,
But what we saw,
Was just a movie

That was the time,
Filled with Happy Days,
Full of dreams,
Full of hope

But it wasn't so,
And left us low,
We expected more,
Cause of what we saw

Life moves so fast,
Time stalls for none,
Life changed so fast that,
Time flew like wind

Now we're at the end,
Of such a long trip,
That changed our lives,
Which was so unexpected

Those were the days,
The so called college days,
Those were the days,
Which changed our lives

Valentines Day

There was a day,
There was a time,
In one of the months,
Out of an year

There is a day,
There is a time,
Teens wait for,
Every single year

There is this day,
There is this time,
The world is so filled,
By people in love

You see some love,
You see some live,
Time changes all,
But people in love

Love is so strong,
Lust is so frail,
What you see more,
Ain't people in love

You feel so cold,
You feel alone,
Cause you live a life,
Where you got no love

It is the day,
When people show love,
Is it for show,
Or is it true love

Love aint a word,
Love aint a mood,
It should prevail,
Now and for on

You say you love,
You say you care,
Then how could you leave,
The one you so love

It was this day,
It was this time,
When you swore your life,
As forever mine

Time was a game,
That took you away,
Now you live your life,
Happier than ever before

Out of Time

The words I've lost,
The thoughts a mess,
The day goes by,
The night stalls in

Life's in a gloom,
Just black and white,
The colours of joy,
Known no more

Is it a transition,
Or just an infatuation,
The feelings gone numb,
And time unsensed

The day has swapped,
It's place with night,
I am at work,
When the world's asleep

There was one thing,
That I always had,
But why is it so,
That I yearn for it now

Time flies so fast,
When you're so happy,
But where is my time,
That I so badly need

Non Existant

Its been so long,
Since I saw your face,
Its been so long,
Since I heard your voice

What have I missed,
Where am I lost,
I keep searching,
But I find you no where

Where have you gone,
Leaving me all alone,
Did you drift away,
Or was it me

I stand alone so low,
I see you right in front,
But you ain't there,
When I try to hold you

Where am I now,
Is this heaven or hell,
That I keep longing,
For a non existant you

Time Heals

The week's been barren,
The days run slow,
I lay on my bed,
With no sense of time

Time passes unknown,
The drag felt at times,
Life has changed,
Maybe for the best

Time's said to heal,
All wounds borne,
That were inflicted,
When you were ditched

The memories forgotten,
The happiness lost,
Its all erased,
Its all gone

Where am I now,
What is the time,
Has it been so long,
Since I saw myself

So is it true,
That time heals you,
That you forget,
All your past?

The Past Week

                    Its been quite a while since I wrote anything on my blog. Well times changed a little bit ya know. Last Saturday was quite a day, the last one of January, well it so happened that I din't have work that day since it was a fourth Saturday, so I was at home. Dad asked me , when I will sleep and I told not anytime before 3am , because by then i got used to the work timings of being awake all night and sleeping during the day time. So he told me that I should go with him at 2:30am to see grandma as she was leaving then. So well I thought why not, I'll be awake anyway so just spent time online doing some random stuff and then switched to watching anime. Then when it was the time dad called me and I got dressed up and we went. Saw grandma , bid her goodbye and then dad told me to drive. It was around 5am , and well I so love driving the car during those empty hours of the day. It was awesome driving on empty roads so fast and dad put the AC, and then my eyes were like closing , even though I was trying to keep them open and worse , buses started rolling out on the roads and their headlights flashing straight at my eyes did me no help. Still driving was awesome. Got back home about 6am and then got ready to sleep. It was my usual time when I used to reach back home after work and so lay down to sleep, but in a few minutes, the alarm started ringing, the most irritating alarm ever , the one that my bro puts, no matter how many times I shut it down it keeps ringing, you know how that feels don't you.Then what, it felt hopeless, so took my laptop which was at arms length and then like in the pictures seen on Facebook recently I held my laptop up, I was lying upright on the bed ya know. I had a small fear in me that it may fall down right on my tummy , and since its super thin , wiki says 3mm, you know a fall from above can be pretty painful. Got up and sat and then thought I will just play the Fb games that I started playing recently. Then his alarms stopped and I went back to sleep. Waking up was pretty normal , at 2:30pm.

                              The most important part of that Sunday was that , Monday followed, it wasn't like any Mondays that I've been having this past month, but had exams in college. I have a habit of studying everything only on the day of the exam, so thought I will sleep early on Sunday night and wake up early on Monday morning. There was just one doubt looming in my mind, and that was whether I would fall asleep at this hour. Well I was right, and wasn't falling asleep and just when I was asleep mom woke me up unnecessarily to eat dinner. I told them not to wake me up and now it was a disaster, I just wasn't falling asleep. And well ended p sleeping just 2 hours. And then woke at 7,only time left was to dress up and get ready. Since the first exam was Networks and security related wrote something. But well the second was a disaster, no mood to even study during the break and lots of hangover of tiredness. The only aim was to get back home early cause we had a company meeting that evening. So had to reach office early. Even the meeting was crap , our MD blamed the night batch of poor performance and told we were less productive, saying the day batch is twice as productive. But is it true? We are all newbies in the night and also we are rather half in number as compared to the day batch. The day batch has all 6 or more months experience so is it a wonder that they are better? And don't we deserve credit for being able to keep up that half productivity? Well that day went like that , got back home around 4:30 am cause I had to go to college that day for the second day of exams. Told dad to wake me up , but he forgot , so ended up waking pretty late, when I took the phone and looked at the time, it was 8:30am darn , even the bus had gone by then. Then what rushed and had to go to college via car. Both exams went real bad.

                                 Now Facebook is like monitored and banned over there in office so not using it much there, just login twice or thrice just to play the games for a bit. And thats another reason why I couldn't post anything here. 1st of February was the day , we were told to submit our rough report , but since the rest of the students had exams on 1st we got an extra life, and got one more day. So on Wednesday my friend came home at around 10:30 to start our report. Well so even that day, din't sleep well. And we started editing other reports with our content and managed to finish it by 5pm. So submitted it to teacher yesterday. Since its been quite a week for me I just decided to sleep over today and skip college. The going to college thought puts a frown on my face anyway, 4 subjects and 7 periods well how boring. Plus the sleepy feeling , altogether made me sleep today. So here I am, writing a blog after so long cause this is the only time after a week that I got some free time to write something. Well now its been said that our presentation will be on February 27 which is a relief. And as for the project we managed something within Monday and Tuesday. So completed the project without doing anything. It was so sudden, now have to know everything about it.

                          Will write again, when I get time , have to go to work tonight aswell as tomorrow night. So todays break was really something I deserved. Taking both studies and work together can be a real mess with all the stress. And its been told that classes end on March 26 so this drag will go on for sometime which is gonna be pretty harsh on my health.